Where am I?

I have been down and out of commission for the last couple of day. I feel like it is a Monday but it is a Thursday. This reality actually makes me happy. I just hope I participate in the "Thursday" activities and not in my "Monday" activities.

Life is ever-changing and I think I am losing my acclamation of where I am.
  • Current Music
    Nora Jones

Wow

Good morning out there in LJ land. It has been a couple years since I have posted anything. I guess I finally have inner feelings that can only be processed through the pensiveness of Live Journal.

So since I have last spoke with you I graduated with my Masters degree, took a promotion to Director in my agency, and grew a couple years wiser in age.

Today I come with many things to say; however, I will keep them concise and attempt to answer any inquiries that may come my way.

So I met this amazing person and we have been going out. I cannot tell you how absolutely amazing this person is. It has been a long time since I felt that someone was interested in the "me" inside of me. Historically it seemed to be a relationhsip of convenience or pure physical pleasure; but not this time. In fact, there has been no true physical interactions to date (other than making out). There is a mutual respect and desire to have a strong foundation before we dive into anything that may injure the relationship.

It's funny how I can be a therapist and work with other people in their relationhsipsm, but when it comes to my own I cannot see past my own emotions. Nonetheless, there have been no major hurdles to jump over. I do foresee a few hurdles down the road but we will have to see how we handle those as they arise. But for today, right now, this moment I am happy. I am happier than I have been in a long time. Relationships are like tunnels... My flashlight can only see so far in the distance, however, I know I am safe and secure for at least that far.

I missed you Live Journal!!!!

Crunchy Leaves


When I returned home yesterday after having a splendid Starbucks and conversation with inoxia I walked through my back yard up to the kitchen entrance to my home. One of the trees that sits on the hill near my driveway has lost a lot of its leaves to the ground. As I walked up the path I heard the sound of crunchy leaves with each step I took. This sound made me happy. There is just something magical about this time of year. I love the cool crisp air blowing, the look of the leaves as they change color. It's like a symphony that instills excitement everywhere.

I hope that autumn last for a while this year. I do hate the cold weather; however, I have every intention to enjoy every moment of this euphoric season before it ends!!!!

Just for fun

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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    None

It's Friday!

So this week has been a rather hectic one. I had to turn in the first draft of my rather large paper for class and I have spent several hours working on it. I was pleased with the final results (even though it is the first of three drafts that must be turned in before the finished product). Along with that I have been trying to keep up with my ever so growing personal life. I find it odd that I moved from the city of Indianapolis into the sticks of Marion, IN only to find that I have something to do every night and there is always someone who wants to hang out. I am very much enjoying that.

Work is good. I like my office and the pace of the slower county. There is enough to keep me busy but not to much to stress me out. Things are going well. The only negative really is that my sister will have to have surgery on Nov. 4 and my great uncle passed aways this week. I hardly knew him so I am not really upset about it... just hate it for my family.

All in all things are grand here!
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    awake awake

Wake Me When September Ends


So this has been a very interesting month. Work has been crazy and personal life has been...well... a roller coaster at best. Things are good though. The weather is starting to get cooler and we are embarking on my favorite time of the year. Things always seem alive in fall in spite of the irony that everything starts to die.

This brings me to a ponderance (if that is even a word). Why is it that we look at things as most beautiful when they start to die? Look at the trees. They dance of yellow, red, orange, brown, and green. One of the most beautiful sights in nature I believe. We celebrate their radiance during this time knowing all along that this represents death as the final outcome.

This parallels life so much. Think about our loved ones. Those of us who have the blessing of watching our beloveds grow old are often times aware of the "fall" of their lives. It seems up to this point we are either too busy or have blind faith that there will be tomorrow to spend time with them. When we know that death is knocking, we take the time to enjoy their company and communicate our feelings to them.

I hope that someday we all learn to take the time to enjoy the birth of spring and the activities of summer instead of waiting till the fall to appreciate our communions just to feel the depression of the dead, cold winters.

Wow! I didn't know I was in a philosophical mood today.... Time for a cookie!
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    None

Why I am a Geek

I had to go and buy some blank CD's in order to burn some pictures. As I approached the check-out counter I saw a beautiful sight!

A box set of "Celtic Favorites"!! It is a 3 disk collection of some grand Celtic music! 

I bough it.

Thus my geekdom

Fantasy

I throw a few necessities in the car... just a few, you can hardly tell I have left my home. I am on the highway and driving, just my thoughts to keep my company and entertained. The highway is long, miles from nowhere, but with each mile I find myself somewhere better than before. The cold air turns warmer the further I go and I begin to feel more alive.

I pass cars along the way, cars with families heading towards a specific destination. Me, I know not where my destination lies, I just go. Mother driving while the father reads a book; children in the backseat, one resting on a pillow laid strategically on the window pain, another with headphones enjoying the sounds of her favorite band.  I wonder where they will go and what conversations arise along the way.

The radio emanates sounds of lost loves, inner strength, and emotions of those in the artist's life. I tap my foot to the rhythm while I gaze at the scenery on the minimally populated highway. I feel free... free to not keep up pretenses or social norms that dictate how I must act in fear of judgment from those I know well and see daily. The different stops along the way create opportunities to have brief interludes with people I will never see again. I find it comforting knowing that there is no history between us and no knowledge of the person that I am.

Here I have no responsibilities, there are no expectations placed on me, no deadlines of which I must meet or endure the consequences if I fail. It's the most freedom that I can personally fathom; although that, of course, is my perception based on my own personal experience. This causes me to ponder what freedom truly is and how should I define freedom. I am happy here, miles from my support and familiar surroundings. 

I continue driving until my body and mind feel comfortable with stopping. I stay until I feel renewed. I rest in the vague knowledge of where I am. 

I return when I choose to.

 
  • Current Mood
    pensive pensive

Karma in 08

So today has been cold. Very cold. It did not stop me from wandering out in the blistering winds. I had a good day; A quiet day. I think I have failed to really take the time that I needed to reflect and process lately. I do enjoy my reflection time. In the past (when I was once addicted to the sweet seduction of slushies, I would do my processing while indulging in the comforts of blue raspberry) I would take a day a week that was set aside for "me" time. I don't have that luxury anymore. For the most part my reflections are very positive. I like to focus on the great things in my life and only heed the minimal amount of energy toward the negative... just enough to solve the issue or come up with a grand scheme and how to execute my massive and illustrious itinerary of defusing the situation.

Today was much the same. Despite the cold and unbearable weather conditions, I fully enjoyed a leisurely drive around the outskirts of Indianapolis. A nice and calming way to kick off 08. Karma take note... I am ready to cash in my good deeds for a year full of positive experiences and grand health. I need to travel out of the country that is not work related at some point this year!